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God’s grace

Dear Friends,
I am yet again surprised by God’s grace and love. Let me explain.
For a long time I have wondered why I am so terrified of so many things, and the light was shed and it wasn’t pretty. It was plain and simple, pride, selfishness, and any number of other things. It was and is quite horrible, the whole reason I do something or don’t do something is because I am looking out for number one… Nearly everything I had ever done in regards to my Christian life, selfishness. I felt incredibly guilty, and rightly so, I am guilty of that and so much more. The next day during what is usually my daily time with God, I didn’t know what to do or to say because I did not want to do something for myself, so I sat there for awhile not really thinking just feeling incredibly awkward. Eventually the silence was broken by that still small voice calling to me. I was guilty and I wanted to hide, but His light was too brilliant, so I listened. To my complete shock He did not condemn, though He had every right to, He did not condone either because He is righteous and my attitude and thoughts were definitely not. Instead He invited, He invited me once again to live a different kind of life. I felt very much like the adulterous woman that Jesus forgave, when He invited her to live a different life (John 8.1-11) I share this with you today because maybe some of you are trapped in something, maybe it is selfishness and pride, maybe pornography, maybe drugs, anything, maybe you are afraid to go before God because you know you are guilty, don’t be afraid to go to Him and be honest before Him. See the life He is inviting you to live today.
Sincerely, Chloe


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Dear friend,

I have delayed this post for a long time.  This is written more or less to some people who have hurt me and such, read if you so desire.

I blamed you for a lot of things, it is easier sometimes.  I blamed you for anger, depression, and even my own actions.  You left us. I thought I had a right, and perhaps I did. However, the damage done to my heart cannot be blamed on you because you did not do it.  I am sorry I ever blamed you, was angry with you, and wanted to cut you off.  I cannot blame you because you did not do this to me.  In my own sickness and depravity I, myself, inflicted this on me, and in that same disease I blamed you.  I cannot begin to express my deep sorrow over what was done.  Maybe one day God will grant me the strength to face you and tell you this.

I blamed you, in my sickness.  I told the lie so many times I began to believe it.  I blamed you for stealing my innocence, but I do not think I had any left by the time you came, not that I fully understood everything.  I am sorry that I have blamed you for so many years.  A convenient lie I told, not that you would ever know.

My gracious Father, I am sorry for not forgiving them made evident in my blaming them.  Please give us the strength and opportunity to reconcile.  You, God, have shown yourself through the ages as a reconciler.  Lord, forgive us and help us to forgive the same way.  In Jesus name AMEN!

-Sincerely, Chloe

Ps: I am praying about posting my testimony, though I am hesitant because I wonder sometimes.  Let me know what you think please

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